a lot has happened since that little video was posted below.
we have a beautiful son, born last friday, Judah Emil. he is wonderful. he's been in hospital in the special care nursery as his lungs weren't quite ready to roll on his birthday. he's been off the nasal cannula--oxygen today; we hope to be bringing him home soooooon. thank you, to those that heard, for the well wishes, and prayers.
yesterday when i was getting ready to head over to the hospital to see him, and hold him and feed him, my babysitter, my Mom, had a heart attack. in my living room.
maybe, there is too much on my plate at the moment. Mom had angioplasty today, to open up a 90% blocked...artery?...not completely, but now it is about 30% blocked. she was so scared. today when i saw her after her procedure she said, "thank you for calling 911."
this morning i was at a different hospital on the other side of the city with Judah, pulling out of the parking ramp, when i got the message that she'd had another, worse, episode. i was yelling, at the top of my voice, "MOM! MOM! MOM! CAN YOU HEAR ME? YOU HAVE TO STAY HERE!" it has been a really tough 24 hours. but she seems to be improving now. i hope to bring the baby to see her tomorrow, if he's able to come home. she hasn't seen him yet--she was watching Theo and Suvi friday, saturday, and sunday so habtamu could be with the baby and me.
if she wasn't over at my house to watch the kids, if i had left the house at the time i'd planned (aren't new moms always running late?), well, i am just thankful we didn't find out how it would have played out if she'd been alone. or alone with my kids. Thank God she was with me. Please, Lord, let me keep her here with me a little while longer. Amen.