i think i can, i think i can.
i think i can, i think i can
|i think i can|
the art is from Miss Jill McDonald's etsy shop.
i have pretty much always known i don't thrive on a go-go-go schedule. to me, it is chaos.
this is what i have just learned: i get tired and confused and lose track of myself when days, weeks, months are jam packed and full and busy. i start to shut down. power off. i will get better at this new life we are living. it's like a new job, it takes time to get acclimated.
and the things that overwhelm me are things plenty-o-mom's do. but my brain is not a plenty-o brain.
so many more signatures and appointments, a set schedule, daily medication for theo, returning to the dave ramsey line of budgeting, testing the waters in a new creative outlet/income generator, new commitments... good, purposeful things. but trying to keep it all straight is a challenge for me. i like easy breeze-y. "I'm breezy." (monica from friends in her message to richard)
i find myself checking and double checking the calendar. i don't want to forget anything, yet, it is bound to happen. we had an open house a couple of weeks ago on a night that i worked; we didn't get it on the calendar and missed it. today i was just.so.exhausted, i couldn't make myself wake up to get the kids to sunday school. and we bring another kindergartener with us, so i knew i'd be letting her down, but i could.not.wake.up. sigh. her mumma is sweet and appreciative that we bring her to sunday school when we can, tho. and we were able to schedule a parent/teacher conference via the 'take home folder' despite missing the sign-up night.
these kids are simply our world and we want to do everything for them. of course.
in searching for my links, i spent some time with my old
they always know how to cheer me up!
then i came across this interview with the other jen. she mentioned how she had a new experience of liking where she was in the very moment, not looking to the past or future...shazam! it resonated with me.
kind of like i am what i am and it is what it is.
love and peace and trick or treats to you and you and you!!!!!