Here I sit on my throne, the computer chair, having read through all the overnight status changes and blog postings, wanting to contribute. I'm sort of surfacey feeling these past few days. Can't get into a deeper thought mode, or bother to pick-up the weekend clutter... I'm not feeling bad or sad or mad. I am graced with moments of glad-- seriously, I LOVE the sunshine. Perhaps the thing is, we need to be outside, but I am lazerific. When I am in this mode, the only thing that sounds worthy is shopping. And since there are no pressing needs for the home, shopping doesn't make sense, either! So from my perch, I turned to the kids and said, "I think we need to make some changes around here." Suvi: "Changes?" Theo: "UGH! Changes?!" Yes, my small friends, it is time.
Then I asked them, "Do you think you guys can go play with your toys, instead of playing right by Mommy?" "No! Trouble, Mommy," says Suvi.
I would like to be thinking about Purpose, and learn more about the Health Care Bill, and set aside the bitterness of some of those who oppose, and the strangeness of some of those who support. But I can't. I have to go play with my children now. It isn't at all about me, or what I don't know or understand. It is all about them in this season, my Purpose is to be in the moment with them this day. I can do that. And I can see the benefits to their health when I take them out to the vitamin D enriching sunshine.
I just had to finish this post first. Heh.
But why do I still have that draggy feeling in the back of my head? Maybe I need a shower... ACK! It is all about me, afterall.