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Saturday, February 11, 2012

masks, quirks, ticks.

first, i am keeping up with my month of letters.  have any of you been mailing sweetness, too?
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so, what does it mean?  i had a dream about alec baldwin.  he was sassy.
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you know that feeling you get when you put on a halloween mask?  it makes you giggle, and you try to become this creature to bring to life the mask.  you might even disguise your body, to keep your anonymity.  but then, you get sweaty and the mask starts to smell a little weird, and once someone has pinned you with your real name, you feel the cool relief of removing the false front.  your cheeks are probably flushed, your hair a bit matted, your neck hot, but you feel so good.  spending four days with deanna was just like that.  i was completely free to be myself, nutser or not.

a good friend just takes the quirks and ticks in stride.  a good friend is more 'whole picture' than 'this moment'.  'this moment' is good, too, and a dear friend can swing a 'this moment' kind of conversation, tear, or inappropriate outburst because they are actually 'big picture' elements.  there is such true-ness in confiding in your girlfriend who has heard and seen your a to z's, in telling her the thoughts your dare not breathe life into in front of anyone else.  she'll even get all dressed up and take you to the dive burrito place you've been craving and then change into yoga pants and build a fire so the two of you can get to the business of serious laughter under the light of the moon.

SO RIGHT!  SO GOOD!  SO NEEDED!
So, when is the next girlfriend get-away?!!!

10 comments:

Tara said...

Everyone needs a Deanna in their lives! I'm so happy you have yours.

Brita said...

Ditto Tara's thoughts.

mella said...

great description of what a relief it is to drop the mask.
sigh.
and the long-view gift reflection that only big pic friends can offer.
sigh. sigh.

smiles from this post and hopefully the next girlfriend get together happens soon (and involves moi!)
xo

Deanna said...

Oh man, I giggle so hard remembering getting all dressed up...eating ga-reasy burritos and and then deciding a bonfire was so more important...please come back :)

Laura said...

I'm SO happy you got to get away and be you!

MindiJo said...

Whole picture friends. <3 LOVE that.

ethiopifinn said...

me too. ;)

elizabeth said...

Whole picture friends. I love that. A friend of mine lives in Portland now, one of those dear kindred kind of friends, and I am not entirely sure how I ever managed before she arrived.

I hope your next girlfriend getaway happens sooner rather than later! And know that you are always welcome here.

xo

ethiopifinn said...

I am so happy for your friend moving near you, miss elizabeth! it makes life sweeter.

and thank you! i miss the ocean, and someday i want to see the beaches you have shared with your loverly photos :)

Sue said...

oh how fun! I need a friend getaway...