go ahead and say it

i couldn't say it first.
and when the day came
night, actually,
i said it under the cover of
bluegrass music
or reggae
i still don't know if he heard me
then.

if he wakes in the night when i've been tending to the kids
he says it.
at lunch time
he says it.
before he sleeps
he says it.

suvi says
i love you, too
even when she says it first.
so go ahead and say it.